Seriosuly i thought i moved on but.... damn wtf?? i feel like doing nothing and i have some hard work to do
Seriously this is killing me......ugh >< stupid feeling on my chest... ugh!!!! OxO STOOP!!!! DX
i gotta focus on me!! FOCUS ON ME!! FUCKING FOCUS ON ME!!
ITS IMPOSSIBLE!! I ADMIT IT!! U_U I don't miss Jonathan >_> i miss how i felt when i was with him!! >< that feeling is what i miss i know i lost him forever and shit but DAMN!! is it really that hard to love me?? ugh......why the hell is everybody happy...BUT ME!! ? *sigh* i must be a very mean person for deserving this..... ITS UNFAIR!! .... God knows that i am the person that needs love THE MOST after all i've gone through...the least thing i deserve is some love....but REAL love man...REAL SHIT! ... i want the next one to be the real, to be the official, the ONE man..the fucking ONE...that's all i need...someone to stay forever...not to say ''Oh, i love you baby'' and tomorrow Me: ''why are you ignoring me? '' He: ''Did you say something baby?'' and one week later He:''Sorry waaah waah (fake tears) i'll set you free waah waah, i'm a bastard..waah waah, its not you it's me..waah waah, LATERS IDIOT! )m( '' *sigh* >_> u_u out of my town i see so many couple's together...and shit...and i'm there like an idiot... ... -_- i'm so damn tired of this...seriously is it too hard to give me someone that worth it...? . *sigh* i just hope this ugly feeling is gone soon.