Aselyuil17
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NEW BEGGINING RISING FROM THE ASHES
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That's right! 
ummm actually i was thinking about deleting this account and creating a new one 
i'm gonna start it all over again, i'm finally over my past, i'm finallly over that hell! YAAAY!! I Finally found myself again! n.n I'M FINALLY MYSELF AGAIN!! WOOHOO Thanks God! he helped me to get out of the darkness my Ex-Boyfriend and other problems left me for a loong time! it seemed ENDLESS!! OVER 10 MONTHS DEPRESSED AND STUFF! NO NO NO >< NEVER AGAIN IN THAT DEEP HOLE! i never been so depressed in my life o.o i still feel kind of sad at times :/ but it isn't because of my Ex anymore or because of my Ex best friend (Soulmate) *roll* WHATEVER LOL NO! 
it's because e_e uhh sometimes i feel kind of empty...and i can't help to feel there's a missed puzzle piece :/ i feel incomplete u-u but that's for a short time 
not those long ass days depressed and stuff i didn't need pills or phsychologists or anything, just some of God's help was enough n.n i finally learnt that my happyness only depends on myself noone else! and that's awesome because if i decide to be happy all the time I CAN BE IT woohooo! now beggins the fun i wanna start it all over again with my drawing, with myself, my music, my stuff, my friends, everything! this 2014 is for MYSELF n.n
ummm actually i was thinking about deleting this account and creating a new one i'm gonna start it all over again, i'm finally over my past, i'm finallly over that hell! YAAAY!! I Finally found myself again! n.n I'M FINALLY MYSELF AGAIN!! WOOHOO Thanks God! he helped me to get out of the darkness my Ex-Boyfriend and other problems left me for a loong time! it seemed ENDLESS!! OVER 10 MONTHS DEPRESSED AND STUFF! NO NO NO >< NEVER AGAIN IN THAT DEEP HOLE! i never been so depressed in my life o.o i still feel kind of sad at times :/ but it isn't because of my Ex anymore or because of my Ex best friend (Soulmate) *roll* WHATEVER LOL NO! it's because e_e uhh sometimes i feel kind of empty...and i can't help to feel there's a missed puzzle piece :/ i feel incomplete u-u but that's for a short time not those long ass days depressed and stuff i didn't need pills or phsychologists or anything, just some of God's help was enough n.n i finally learnt that my happyness only depends on myself noone else! and that's awesome because if i decide to be happy all the time I CAN BE IT woohooo! now beggins the fun i wanna start it all over again with my drawing, with myself, my music, my stuff, my friends, everything! this 2014 is for MYSELF n.n
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I feel like shit...
Seriosuly i thought i moved on but.... damn wtf?? i feel like doing nothing and i have some hard work to do
Seriously this is killing me......ugh >< stupid feeling on my chest... ugh!!!! OxO STOOP!!!! DX
i gotta focus on me!! FOCUS ON ME!! FUCKING FOCUS ON ME!!
ITS IMPOSSIBLE!! I ADMIT IT!! U_U I don't miss Jonathan >_> i miss how i felt when i was with him!! >< that feeling is what i miss i know i lost him forever and shit but DAMN!! is it really that hard to love me?? ugh......why the hell is everybody happy...BUT ME!! ? *sigh* i must be a very mean person for deserving this..... ITS UNFAIR!! .... God knows that i am the person that needs love THE MOST after all i've gone through...the least thing i deserve is some love....but REAL love man...REAL SHIT! ... i want the next one to be the real, to be the official, the ONE man..the fucking ONE...that's all i need...someone to stay forever...not to say ''Oh, i love you baby'' and tomorrow Me: ''why are you ignoring me? '' He: ''Did you say something baby?'' and one week later He:''Sorry waaah waah (fake tears) i'll set you free waah waah, i'm a bastard..waah waah, its not you it's me..waah waah, LATERS IDIOT! )m( '' *sigh* >_> u_u out of my town i see so many couple's together...and shit...and i'm there like an idiot... 
... -_- i'm so damn tired of this...seriously is it too hard to give me someone that worth it...? . *sigh* i just hope this ugly feeling is gone soon.
but DAMN!! is it really that hard to love me?? ugh......why the hell is everybody happy...BUT ME!! ? *sigh* i must be a very mean person for deserving this..... ITS UNFAIR!! .... God knows that i am the person that needs love THE MOST after all i've gone through...the least thing i deserve is some love....but REAL love man...REAL SHIT! ... i want the next one to be the real, to be the official, the ONE man..the fucking ONE...that's all i need...someone to stay forever...not to say ''Oh, i love you baby'' and tomorrow Me: ''why are you ignoring me? '' He: ''Did you say something baby?'' and one week later He:''Sorry waaah waah (fake tears) i'll set you free waah waah, i'm a bastard..waah waah, its not you it's me..waah waah, LATERS IDIOT! )m( '' *sigh* >_> u_u out of my town i see so many couple's together...and shit...and i'm there like an idiot... ... -_- i'm so damn tired of this...seriously is it too hard to give me someone that worth it...? . *sigh* i just hope this ugly feeling is gone soon.Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
Unforgiven
1 min read
Throw your bombs,
Throw your blows,
Break my bones,
With your stones
Dispise me today
Spit me in the face
Screw up my days
But you'll need me one day
You cannot scape
From your cruel fate
And your punishment will be
To stay without me
You will need me
Trust me you will
But sadly i wont be
There when you need me
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I'll miss you
2 min read
Here's another song i made, i hope you like it and if you dont ;'') idgaf.
I'll miss you all the time
I'll think of you each instant
Because i know there wont be any comfort
To take me away from wanting you
If i've known what's loving you
Making me the idea that you're far
Impossible to reach you
That there's only your shadow
and i cant even touch you
I'll miss you forever......because i'll never be able to forget you
I'll have you here closer
As part of my life
And i'll remember it all
though my wound will get bigger
You can't imagine the number of dreams
That at night are following me
And though i try so hard
Almost always you win me
I'll miss you forever....and though our lives keep their curse....
I'll realize each day.... That i'm not gonna ever forget you...
I'll have you here closer
As part of my life
And i'll remember it all
though my wound will get bigger
You can't imagine the number of dreams
That at night are following me
And though i try so hard
Almost always you win me
I'll miss you forever....and though our lives keep their curse....
I'll realize each day.... That i'm not gonna ever forget you...
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Yes.... :')
1 min read
yes..god confirmed me... god is so cute
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